Every Word You Cannot Say

“I’m sorry I made a mess,
I’ve never had hands before.
Don’t get angry at me because I’m scared.
Hold me until it passes.
I heard a noise and I was worried that it was the end of the world.
You walked away and I was worried you were never coming back.
I was hungry and I was worried I would never eat again.
I was cold and I was worried I would never be warm again.
It was dark and I didn’t know if the sun would come out again.
There were voices and I didn’t know whose they were.
I’ve never done any of this before.
Love me, because I love you more than
anyone else has ever loved you.”

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And I’m sorry if I hurt you by not being there.
I’m sorry if we let the clock turn while we
weren’t looking.
I’m sorry if you thought things were going to
turn out differently.
I’m sorry because I thought things would
turn out differently.
I’m sorry about getting old.
I’m sorry if you still miss me.
I’m sorry if I still miss you.
I’m sorry if there are days
I’d rather write about anything else but you.