how to love in the dark

No one knows how to love me when I’m sad
and I can’t blame them for that
I don’t even know how to love me
when the voices come at night
I hate and hate and hate
even when I fight.

No one knows how to love me when I’m mad
and I can’t blame them for that
I don’t even know how to stop me
when my voice gets loud
I hate and hate and hate
even when I muffle the sound.

No one knows how to love me
the way I am learning now
it takes time and patience,
tears and self-doubt
I hope and hope and hope
someone will come around.

What a whiny,
self-absorbed girl.
She thinks the worst of herself
when no one even cared
to say a thing or two at all.