I Cannot Lose

by Edna Dean Proctor

NOW summer finds her perfect prime,
Sweet blows the wind from western calms,
On every bower red roses climb,
The meadows sleep in mingled balms.
Nor stream_nor bank the wayside by,
But lilies float, and daisies throng,
Nor space of blue and sunny sky
‘That is not cleft with soaring song.
O flowery morns, O tuneful eves,
Fly swift! my soul ye cannot fill!
Bring the ripe fruit, the garnered sheaves,
The drifting snows on plain and hill.
Alike to me fall frosts and dews;
But heaven, O Lord, I cannot lose.

Warm hands to-day are clasped in mine;
Fond hearts my mirth or mourning share;
And, over hope’s horizon line,
The future dawns, serenely fair.
Yet still, though fervent vow denies,
I know the rapture will not stay;
Some wind of grief or doubt will rise,
And turn my rosy sky to gray.
I shall awake in rainy morn
To find my hearth left lone and drear;
Thus, half in sadness, half in scorn,
I let my life burn on as clear,
Though friends grow cold, or fond love woos;
But heaven, O Lord, I cannot lose.

In golden hours, the angel Peace
Comes down and broods me with her wings,
I gain from sorrow sweet release,
- I mate me with divinest things;
When shapes of guilt and gloom arise,
And far the radiant angel flees,
My song is lost in mournful sighs,
My wine of triumph left but lees.
In vain form e her pinions shine,
And pure, celestial days begin;
Earth’s passion-flowers I still must twine,
Nor braid one beauteous lily in.
Ah, is it good or ill I choose?
But heaven, O Lord, I cannot lose.

So wait I. Every day that dies
With flush and fragrance born of June,
I know shall more resplendent rise,
, Where is no need of sun nor moon.
And every bud on love’s low tree,
Whose mocking crimson flames and falls,
In fullest flower I yet shall see,
High blooming by the jasper walls.
Nay, every sin that dims my days,
And wild regrets that veil the sun,
Shall fade before those dazzling rays,
And my long glory be begun.
Let the years come to bless or bruise,
Thy heaven, O Lord, I shall not lose.

From: 
Among the Poets: A Choice Selection of the Best Poems by the Best Authors